Blog #19
It is really hard for me to think of someone that I really admired. I would think that the first thing to come to my head would be an athlete. I grew up always wanting to play pro basketball, baseball or football.  I dont know that I ever admired the person but more admired the situation. I guess I will go in a different direction and say I admired my grandfather while he was still alive.  He passed away two years ago from heart failure.  He was the rock that held all of my extended family together.  It may have been because he was always sick, so we were always up there to help take care of him.  It seemed like he was always the calm one in every situation and every problem that our family had.  It is hard because he passed away before I ever had a family.  I kind of feel like I missed all the good advice that I would have got if he were still alive.  I got the teenager advice before he died but never got the adult and father advice that I could have gotten.  He was someone that would hide his emotions if things were going bad and he would always put on a good front for people.  He didnt want you to see that something was wrong, so in turn it always seemed like he was happy and that made a huge impression on me.  He was feeling the same things that everyone else was, but he got labeled a happy person because of the way he acted with you, regardless of his mood.  The longer he has been gone, the more and more I miss him.  Our family has grown apart since he passed away and I know if he were here, it wouldnt even be close to as bad as it is. (315)